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What’s going on at Camp Namaste

I apologize for the lack of updates lately. Things have been kinda insane here. I’ve been in pain for several months now and finally went to the doctor to have something done about it. I had assumed all this time that I had a hip bursitis but when I started randomly falling down (falls not related to drop attacks) I got concerned. Good thing – I don’t have a hip bursitis. What I do have is severe inflammation in my lower spine that is compressing the main nerve to my right leg. The nerve has been gradually getting pinched tighter and tighter. The doc ordered X-rays, and put me on what is basically a week of chemo drugs in an effort to reduce the inflammation as much as possible to relief some of the pressure before permanent nerve damage occurs, leaving me with a permanent limp or worse.

Despite all that, I have been sticking to my diet plan and have lost a total of 5kg so far (11 lbs) in a month, and am working hard to keep losing. Every week that the scale shows a loss, no matter how small, that’s a week I win against my body and my crappy dying thyroid. I was able to go shopping for a new outfit for a wedding I’m attending this Saturday – and buy a whole size smaller! YAY!

Karma is still enjoying her retirement. I am concerned that she seems a lot slower lately and has less energy. This spurred some preplanning thoughts and yesterday I sat down with Jen of By and By Memorials to hammer out the details for Karma’s final resting place since I know when the time comes, I will be in no position to make decisions about how I want her urn to look.

Journey and me
And last but certainly not least… Journey. This boy, since his neuter, is making progress by leaps and bounds. Every day he is making huge strides forward in his training and I’m confident that soon enough, he will be ready to start taking over Karma’s duties and we will have a beautiful partnership. I’m learning to trust that he can and will be able to take care of me, and that’s a great thing.
Assistance Dogs I'm not dead yet

Less than 24 hours…

In less than 24 hours, a partnership that began 6 years ago will be coming to an end. With Karma’s official retirement looming, I’m starting to panic a little about my decision. I know it’s absolutely the right thing for her, and after years of her looking out for me, it’s my turn to look out for her, but I would be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified right now about how things are going to be with me flying solo for a while.

This afternoon, I had to run out for milk, the store is a block away, and it should just be a quick in-and-out, so I left Karma at home. And wouldn’t you know, I go out without her and Holy Vertigo, Batman! I almost passed out in the checkout line. I’ve been home for an hour now and still my head is spinning. So I sit here asking myself “What the hell am I going to do now?” and I don’t have any answers yet.
30 Days of Truth I'm not dead yet

30 Days of Truth, Day 14 – A letter to a hero that has let me down

I’m resurrecting myself again. Been quite awhile since I blogged last, and a lot has happened. But I’ll save some of that for tomorrow. This particular entry I have been struggling with for a few weeks now. I kept meaning to write something but just didn’t really have any heroes that let me down. Until recently. Now I do have one I could write about… but I’m feeling less snarky and more positive today, so instead of calling out the person who disappointed me immensely and made me seriously rethink everything I thought I knew about human kind, I’d rather write a letter to a hero that has never once let me down, and sing her praises just a bit.


To my faithful sidekick and always-there companion:

For the last 6 years, you have been my best friend, my partner. I can always count on you, trust you implicitly with my life, and you never fail to make me smile at least once a day, if not much more. You never complain if I’m not feeling up to getting out of the house, or even getting dressed on any given day, and you never complain if that means you’re cooped up too. You know what all my faces mean, even if I put on a happy face when I’m really feeling like shit inside. You don’t care if I’m fat, dumpy, grumpy, or snarky, and you don’t care if I wear makeup or do my hair just right.

You make me believe in unconditional love and trust, and you are truly better than every single person I know. I know our time together won’t last forever, and I will be completely lost without you when that day comes. You’ll never know just how much you really mean to me, and you don’t have an agenda or an ego to stroke. You don’t judge, you don’t criticize… you’re just always there when I need you and I hope that I have always been there for you too.

You’re the best dog a girl could ever hope for, and your successor has huge paw prints to fill.

To my best friend, my service dog, Karma – you’re my hero and you’ve never let me down.

My service dog, Karma


Additionally I’d like to thank everyone who has helped me to bring my new service puppy home – your generosity amazes me. Thank you all so very much for chipping in and helping out, I genuinely appreciate it. I’m so very close to my goal now and couldn’t have gotten there without you. Just a little bit more and I’m all set to bring Journey home in June!